Creating this website was suppose to help me slowly pull away from Myspace, but I keep going there instead of here. Maybe it's because all my friends are on Myspace? And not Uber? I'm not really sure why, but the even sadder thing is, I've been doing most of my usual blogging here, in Myspace bulletins :p. So if you'd desire to add my Myspace, my url is www.myspace.com/slayerboi. Blehh, I hate that url, it's from soooo long ago. I just don't like it... ha. So yeah, I'm going to try my hardest to blog more here, and make blogs out of my bulletins too.
I know I haven't blogged in a while, and please excuse my last post [which has been deleted]. But anyways, I'm starting to see life in a brighter way, it's not as complicated as you think it may be. We may want and want things, but never take any actions, which doesn't take you anywhere. You should always speak your mind, and never worry about other people's judgements on you. Because really, it doesn't matter what others think of you, as long as your happy with yourself. And if you aren't happy with yourself, change it, nothing is controlling you to be unhappy. Who cares if your "friends" don't like the real you, you were obviously not meant to be. And if you're left with only a few friends, who cares, at least you know who your real friends are. And friendship isn't about quantity anyways, believe me. I only really have 4 friends, at most, but who really cares, their the best friends I could ever ask for. Some people don't even have friends, for those people, I know how you feel, but you should try to be more social. Even though you think, or know, that there isn't anyone who has anything in common with you, there'll be someone, maybe not at the moment, but they'll come when you need them most.
So, in the past couple years, I've been slowly losing all my friends. Which is a real bummer. But now I'm only down to a handful, and guess what happened today. Lost another one... The one I knew the longest, we were the best of friends before, but now, it seems like it's all ended. I've known them since 1st grade, it's so sad to see your life go down. Now i only have... 4 friends =[. I just wish there were people that had stuff in common with me. I have one friend who has a few things in common with me, so I guess I could settle. But she might be moving in the next year or so. So I'm just going to be a lone pretty much. Hopefully she doesn't end up leaving, because right now, she's all I have. And the sad thing is, I'm not even her best friend.... Life is just so cruel to me lately, but at least there's only up from here. Because I'm near rock bottom =/.
