But things are hitting me hard. =/ I'm just thinking of stuff, like "what if" stuff. And it's sort of going to the level where I'm about to break down and cry =[. I know of coarse boys don't cry =|. I just need to stop thinking about it, even if becomes reality. Which would be the worst thing to ever happen to me. Nothing in my life would be the same. My future would be crushed, and everything around me. So lets pray that it doesn't come true. And don't ask me what it is, I rather not say.