I've been crying a lot lately, and I never cry. It's just everything has been hitting hard lately, not the greatest thing to happen. I'm just really complicated, and everyone is starting to drift away from me. I'm losing all my friends, well this has been happening for a few years now. But I only have a few left now... So it's not that great. And family issues are lame, especially when you're the cause of them =/. I'm just trying to get through high school, and hopefully enjoy it. But then I'm out of here, off to SoCal. Not really sure what I'll do there, but my options will probably be better there. Life overall will be better there. Not really sure what I want to do, maybe I'll go to beauty school. Get certified to cut hair, yeah, that's what I probably will end up doing. I also want to do side projects or something. I want more than one "career", I know I want to do some modeling. And I also want to help people/the world somehow. So I plan doing this all in life. Because, really, you only live once, so might as well do what you want. Annnddddd, I think I want my septum pierced. Either that or lip piercing. Just saying, ha. Well writing this blog has helped a lot, so hopefully someone reads it, ha.